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FOODGASM! …Cooking Therapy??.. crazy easy cheezy dip, Matbucha, Veal Stew (crockpot), Tomato salad, Breakfast Bake.

veal stew 2

By now I am sure you realize that not only do I love to eat, I love to cook! Its not just the flavors that hit My pallet, its the soothing therapy that affects My soul… the inner Me that needs that little reminder that there are things bigger then Us, there are those, in need, REAL NEED, and My petty bitches and complaints are ridiculous. Cooking does more then feed hungry people. It has the ability to reconnect YOU with the Universe as a whole.

CRAZY CHICK ON THE LOOSE… is THAT what you are thinking? Are you wondering if the back pain meds have finally taken Me over the edge?? It hasn’t, I PROMISE! Stick with Me while I explain.. don’t worry, I am chuckling as I type and reread what I ve written. 🙂 So here is My thought process… I take fresh produce that was grown by someone who has to put their heart and soul into taking seeds and caring for them until they produce the labor of their love.. VEGGIES! Now We use these veggies in our meals, that We as providers, (providing shelter, love food, to our offspring) prepare lovingly for those that We care about.. whether that is your immediate family, relatives, or your business.. YOU are taking time from your life, a moment to create something nourishing for another human, and if you are sitting together sharing this meal with others that you care about, you are also nourishing each others Minds, and hearts and thoughts.

GOOD FOOD has the ability to bring people together. When people get together there is always some type of nourishing going on..Seriously! Think about it… We all know that Chocolate has some type of happy maker inside it, I mean for years I’ve heard Women speak of the AMAZING healing power of chocolate when “AUNT FLO” is in town. It never worked for Me, however I really didn’t have a difficult …. visit when she came monthly. OMG, how did We get from fresh produce to “Aunt Flo”.. see what happens when I get started on a roll.. 🙂

Point? … Yes, I remember now. Good food mixed with great people makes for fabulous memories/moments. Good Food can heal wounds, make memories to last a life time, create new friendships.. FOOD is LIFE!!

For Me cooking is a kind of therapy. My kitchen is a safe place for Me, its sacred and all of those who love Me are aware and respect that. YES! I take My kitchen seriously!! I mean, I am all for teaching others how to cook, at the same time, I have very expensive pieces of machinery and other cooking tools that I value and I really don’t trust any of My immediate (meaning the rugrats) family (and the ex) with ANY of My tools for cooking!! There! I said it… Neurotic? Quite possibly.

Onto the recipes and directions. Honestly, these may be the easiest recipes for some really GOOD food!! I’m not sure if I had mentioned this before, I LOVE LOVE LOVE to use ingredients and make Meals that I can “upcycle” the leftovers!! . The Veal Stew and the Breakfast bake are two “upcycled”  Meals.

veal stew

Veal Stew


Veal Breasts (previously roasted, whatever is left over, including bones, juices and fat)

2-3 stalks of celery, chopped however big you prefer.

about 20 mini carrots chopped, or 4 medium carrots, chopped again, however you prefer.

2 large, or 4 small onion or more if you love onions, chopped.

about 3 cups or so water or stock (you can use chicken or beef stock. I find beef stock to be overwhelming to the veal taste that I am looking for from veal stew.

any leftover veggie you might have from the night you prepared the Roasted veal, or don’t add anything else at all, totally YOUR call. I made sautéed baby zucchini with onions the night I made the Veal, so I added this to the pot.

4 to 6 medium/small white potatoes, or whatever type of potatoes you have in the house.. IF you have leftover mashed, add those to the pit too, believe it or not, it makes an incredible taste and thickens the stew.

salt and pepper to taste, I added these after the stew cooked for awhile and I could gauge the taste better.

I chopped the onions, carrots and celery, added 3 tablespoons of olive oil and threw those into My large Crockpot, set it at 400, put the lid on and let the veggies cook for about 12 minutes, checking on them of course. When the veggies are softer and the onions are near translucent add the veal, bones, meat, fat and juices. Stir it all up.. I like to move the veggies so that the veal is on the bottom and the veggies are laying atop the veal. (This adds more flavor to the stew, when you add the stock or water, whatever liquid you chose, it releases the meat from the bottom of the hot crockpot and alllll those yummy bits of goodness!) I let it sit covered at 400 for about 15 minutes. Add the liquid and whatever leftover veggies you want, stir, cover and turn it down to 300.

Now, here is where the cooking time varies. I am using it tomorrow for dinner, I started it this morning, I have had it cooking at 250 in the crockpot for about 8 hours so far. Most of the bones have been released by the connective tissue, fat and meat. Basically that is your cue to add the potatoes, when the meat has fallen off the bones… or close to it. Now if you’re setting this up in the morning and want it done by the time you get home from work, I assume around dinner time, then you would just dumped all the ingredients into the crockpot, set the temp to 275 and away you go! By the time you get home you’re dinner will be done and ready to serve. The only thing I would add is a crusty loaf of bread to accompany the stew, OH and a glass of fabulous wine.. BON APETIT!!

****Here’s a helpful hint..  any fatty meat cooked in a crockpot  will be very oily when the meal is done, it is VERY easy to remove this layer of liquid fat. I use a soup ladle.. you gently lower it into the stew, not letting the rim of the ladle dip below the layer of fat, the liquid fat will fall into the ladle, you continue doing this til the amount of fat you want removed is gone. If you are TOTALLY freaked out and need ALL the liquid fat out of your stew then, after the ladle trick, take coffee filters and lay them across the top of the stew, they will soak up the fat, pay attention when doing this, as soon as the fat adheres itself to the filter, lift the filter out.. repeat as necessary.

breakfast bake

Breakfast Bake::

A loaf of any bread you have left over will work for this recipe, preferably something with fruit and/or nuts in it, maybe a cinnamon bread type thing, or even a loaf of plain Italian bread. ANY BREAD!! SERIOUSLY.. This is a recipe I saw on one of the cooking shows from the food network.. I tweaked it to fit My family’s tastes and preferences.  It is very similar to a bread pudding, but My family named it Breakfast Bake.

Pause…. I HAD to go and take a taste now that I am talking about it.. FAIR WARNING!! IF you are trying to lose weight DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT MAKE THIS RECIPE!!! OMG it is sooooooo FREAKING YUMMY!!! And this is an easy as I don’t know what recipe!!

What you need: 9×13 baking dish.

approx. 4 cups chopped up or ripped apart bread of your choice.

1 1/2 sticks butter, chopped up

9 eggs

3 cups milk or half and half, or cream, or evaporated milk, whichever you have to use, remember the higher the fat in the dairy liquid of choice, the less you use, finish the total amount needed with water.

1/2 cup dark brown sugar

1/3 cup white sugar

2 teaspoon vanilla

1/2 teaspoon cinnamon

This is the easy part!!

beat the eggs until they are well blended (all yellow, no clear parts of the whites still not incorporated) Add the liquid dairy of choice, both sugars, vanilla, and cinnamon. Chop the butter and add to the torn up bread pieces, toss well. Pour egg mixture over bread, toss to coat all bread pieces. Smoosh the bread down into the baking dish, forcing it to soak up the liquid. Put the baking dish in the fridge, covered overnight (if you absolutely cant wait til the next day, let it sit in the fridge at LEAST 4 hours before baking)

Bake at 350 for approx. 40 minutes. Check on it after 30 minutes. I usually turn the oven off 5 to 10 minutes before the breakfast bake is done, and let it sit in the oven  to finish cooking. This way I don’t over do it and dry out the custardy texture.

I serve it sometimes with syrup, sometimes with some powdered sugar sprinkled across the top. I believe the best part of this recipe and this meal is that it can be cut into squares, frozen in sandwich bags and pulled out in the morning by you or your offspring, popped in the microwave, or toaster oven (My kids favorite way) and eaten anytime, right at your finger tips!! Served warm with vanilla ice cream is a FOODGASM for sure!

P.S. I tried to add all My step by step photos, not sure what went wrong.. could be the “blonde” thing again, or just that this computer is a piece of shit… Man or the Machine Up for discussion..LOL..

Next Post.. Crazy easy cheezy dip, Matbucha, and Tomato salad

Sweet Dreams!



AFTER you let your Ex-Husband move in….

We were married Sept 26, 1993. We were divorced May 11, 2010. The divorce was My decision, he fought Me the entire way. I knew the true reason he did not want a divorce… He had no one else to take care of him. (My ego is not responsible at all for what I am about to say) He fell apart after our divorce. Did he have “Girlfriends”, to hear him tell it, no one was at “Girlfriend” status, they were all just friends.. that he had sex with..LOL We hated each other for about three years, trying and succeeding at making each others lives hell for a temporary moment. He and I have been through many years together, We have had 5 children together, There is still a bond … of responsibility I feel towards him. It sounds confusing I am sure, however, its very simple. I promised to take care of him til the day he dies. Even if I was in a serious relationship (I doubt that will EVER happen again.. or at least as long as I stay perpetually horny!.. LOL) even if, as I was saying, HE would have to be a special man to understand that relationship I have and will continue to have with My Ex-Husband, for the rest of his life.

As the Title of this post implies, I let My ex move into My apartment about 4 months ago. This decision was made with the knowledge that he would be homeless if I did not let him move in, temporarily. At the time of him moving in, I was single, and by the way.. LOVING IT!!!  **Side note** I am not such a typical female. I LIKED sleeping alone, I LIKED waking up alone, I LIKED MY closet to MYSELF… HA! I could go on… futile now though…**

I laid down the rules before He moved in, so that there would be no misunderstandings later. I had .. “Friends” and they would come to My house and visit Me. At that specific moment I was seeing One Man in particular. He was sweet, good looking, somewhat kept in shape. However, He was … how do I say this… a “Mama’s Boy”. I mean, he tried to be a bad boy, telling Me of his younger years when He was in “the game” ..LOL The “Game”… another post for another day when I am in the mood for sharing. Anyway.. He became too clingy and I could see that He was not motivated enough to be My “Man”. I have this rule. If We have only been seeing each other for under a month and you ask Me to borrow money, or you need gas to come see Me… We are DEFINATLY not going to make it to the 2nd month!! And He lived at home, using the excuse that His parents needed him there to help care for them, which come to find out was bullshit! OH, and making love… well… it was like being humped by a sperm whale. (tiny giggle) I cut him loose after the second weekend He spent at My home, while My ex slept on the couch. I must admit, the Man I was seeing handled it quite well, the ex sleeping on the couch, while We were in My bed, the sperm whale and I. (again I giggled) My children on the other hand.. well, I usually go with THEIR feelings when it comes to Who I let into our lives. This one, they did not like or feel comfortable around, Yup… had to cut him loose.

Did you notice how I used the suffix ‘ed’ in the second paragraph, a few times? Yeh, well… that is because I am NO longer sleeping, waking or having My closet to MY ALONE!!! After the third month, I gave into My ex-Husband and agreed to give it another try. Quite honestly, I already know what a fuck up HE is, I know HIS annoying habits, HIS screwed up ideals and ideas… I am USED to him. I also know… how to get what I want from HIM, I know how to play a perfectly tuned piano.  Did that sound fucked up? Selfish? Wrong?  Frankly, I don’t care if it does. HE is getting what HE wants out of this… agreement,  as am I.. to a certain extent. The sex is scarce, it doesn’t happen often and when it does, its NOT what I am used to. He is sweet though and He is truly trying to do everything He can to make our lives better and do more things together.

If I were to be honest, which I don’t see any point in lying.. I will admit, I am not “in love” with him.. maybe that will come in time, at the moment I love him and I made a commitment to him. I have been faithful thus far. I don’t know how much longer that will remain a fact. I suppose as long as I wish to continue doing the “right” thing…. devil on one shoulder, angel on the other..

I bid you all good night and peaceful dreams.

XOXO Satie

Sunday Dinner… cooking itself while I enjoy the day with My kids!

Good Sunday Morning!!  This is My easy as heck Sunday dinner recipe for Chuck roast, done in a crock pot (two crock pots, if your family is as big as mine)

Sundays at My house have always been the same, when I was married, after the divorce and at the current moment. I wake up when I am ready. The kids sleep until they smell something cooking, usually grits, bacon and/or sausage, eggs, pancakes, French toast bake (recipe to come next Sunday morning). Today however, I chose not to make breakfast, instead I got tonight’s dinner in the crock pot and started, reason? Home this morning are only the two youngest and My ex husband… (Ill explain about him on the “relationship” page). My oldest (that still lives at home) is currently at work, from 8 am this morning til 4:30 this afternoon. Also, I promised My youngest son, he is 12, that I would take him and his best friend to the skate park in West Haven, there they can practice skateboarding tricks, hopefully nothing gets broke today..arm, leg..ya know…body parts 🙂 I like the skate park in West Haven because its HUGE, FREE and across the street from the beach.. which happens to be My favorite place in the world.. The Beach.. ANY beach. I feel a connection whenever I am there, the water, the smell, the sound… it brings Me peace and clarity..again, another page for that part of My life 😉

Ok…. On to the recipe.. Remember this is My first Blog with pictures and step by step instructions so bare with Me please.



3-4lbs chuck roast (or any inexpensive cut of beef, listen, when cooked in a crock pot even the cheapest cuts of beef become tender and flavorful)

2-3 large Vidalia onions (Vidalia or “sweet” onions are My favorite for all purpose use, red onions are My second favorite)

7 cloves crushed garlic (I use a garlic press, I STRONGLY suggest investing in a good one)

4 stalks celery

4 large carrots (ok, so My 16 yr old daughter threw away the bag od mini carrots I had in the fridge because they “looked” dried out… today there are not carrots in the pot, however it will still taste amazing)

1 pkg Trader Joes dried mixed mushrooms ( you can use whatever mushrooms YOU like..I use dried because they are SOOOOO versatile and I make a lot of soups in the winter and cream of mushroom is My families favorite)

1/2 a 5 lb bag of Yukon Gold potatoes or approx. 10 potatoes (you can use whatever type of potatoe YOU like, I prefer Yukon golds because they are not as starchy as eastern whites or idahos)

Salt & pepper to taste

1/2 cup Cabernet Sauvignon (Barefoot winery is My FAV)

1 tbsp of gravy master

1 14oz can of beef broth

3 tbsp of GOOD olive oil 

2 tbsp dried Thyme (I love thyme with ANY meat dish)

This is the easy part… The instructions!

oil in the pot first, turn the heat to 400. Cut onions and potatoes into chunks, approx. 1inch squared (if you have carrots, cut the same as other veggies), add to pot. Crush garlic, add to pot, cut celery into smaller chunks, add to pot. Add salt, pepper, thyme, gravy master, wine and mushrooms. Let cook for approx. 5 minutes, mixing to coat all ingredients. Now add meat, I lay the meat pieces on top of the veggies for the first 15 minutes, then add the beef broth.  (Oh, I use the meat FROZEN, that’s the best part of using a crock pot, you don’t have to defrost most meats when using a crockpot.)

Best investment, a garlic press!
Best investment, a garlic press!
sweating veggies with wine :)
sweating veggies with wine 🙂

Let everything simmer at 400 for about 15 minutes, then turn down to 300, leave cover on and walk away!! Check every hour, (if you are home, if not, it will be fine, if you are going to be gone more then three hours leave the temp at 250) until meat is falling apart and the potatoes are tender… The juice/gravy will taste so good you will want to drink it!! The finished product picture will be posted later, however this is what it looks like as it cooks.


Enjoy your Sunday… I am off with the brats to have some fun while dinner cooks without Me 🙂


So, I started this blog because I believe in sharing life experiences, recipes, helpful hints, ways to improve ourselves… My opinions, which may or may not be liked.. but isn’t that what having your own blog is for? I find life amusing, most of the time. There are days when I would rather be sipping a fruity drink, on a beach, with NO ONE else around… Unfortunately, I can only go there in my mind.. for now.

A little… ok, maybe A LOT about Me in this post… I am a 45 year young Mother of 5, grandmother of 2, was married for almost 18 years, divorced 4 years now (My choice).. I have never been wealthy, I come from a middle class working family. My parents were divorced when I was 10, another day for that conversation! If I were to describe myself.. my person as a whole, who I TRULY know myself to be.. well, I believe it may come across a bit narcissistic and egotistical, I can be harsh even when describing myself. I am a Taurus Woman, to the most extreme. Loyal to a fault… until one has betrayed me, then.. you are cut out of my life. Different then other women, I think and make decisions based on logic, not emotion. I can be very cold, however only when it is necessary. Yes, there are times when it IS necessary to be unemotional, cold, controlled. See… I am making myself sound like an ogre!!

My friends describe Me as loving, smart, helpful, determined, funny, bold, unafraid…sometimes an angel. Some of My “associates” (not loyal enough to be called a Friend) may describe Me as… “Not the one!!” I say what I mean and mean what I say. Simple.

This blog will have so much information, funny stuff, recipes (I am a chef and former restaurant/catering company owner) as well as being a Mother to 5 and learning how to survive being broke, it seemed.. all the time.

I hope you enjoy My blog..